Waiting

All I have to say is house hunting and moving is NOT fun!

It's so stressful!

All I want to do is cry.

Ever been so stressed you just want to cry? Of course. Who hasn't?

I have no idea when or where we are moving to.

Sometimes I'm not ever sure we are moving.

There is no logical answer.

No direction.

No open doors.

No answers.

I really dislike the "just wait" stage.

I have no idea what I'm waiting on. I have no idea where the Lord is leading us. Do we stay or do we go??? I do not know!

Lord, show us the way we should go.

If you get the urge please pray for us.

Wordless Wednesday

Favorite things

My friend Jenny just posted about her favorite things. I'm such a copy cat that I decided to make a list of my own.

1.iPhone-I don't go anywhere without my phone. I use it for almost everything.

2.Water Bottle- I usually drink water like a camel. I'm always carrying around a bottle of water.

3.Purell- I'm a little OCD. I'm constantly washing my hands.

4.Burts Bees- This stuff is addicting!

5.Treadmill- I absolutely love to run. I would much rather run outside, but sometimes the mill has to do.

6.Flat Iron- I should know better than anyone how damaging the flat iron is to your hair. I don't care. I don't want frizzy hair.

7.Toms-I started out with the glitter Toms. So comfy!! I wanted another pair that wasn't so flashy. And then I wanted a pair to customize and paint. So, I have 3 pairs and wear them all the time. I love all shoes really, but WOW these are comfy and trendy!!

8.Journal- I have a couple journals. I love to write. I have one that I write in almost everyday. I have another that I use to make lists. I make lists for everything.

9.Hard Head hairspray- Working at Toni&Guy made me a little obsessive over Bed Head hair products! Especially this strong hold hair spray. Everyone in west Tx needs hairspray!!

10. Travel toothbrush kit- I like fresh breath and clean teeth.I usually brush after each meal. I figured my parents spent so much money on braces I should take care of my teeth.

11.Planner- I'm such a planner. I'm up for just about anything,just as long as it's written in my planner.

I try to be an open book, but that is sometimes really hard to do. Maybe that's why I have had writers block for so long now.

I have a tendency toward perfection; in my home, hobbies/activites, religion, marriage (whatever that is). That's not pride is it?? ;-) Recently all the years of heartache and the walls I had built which I held back came crumbling down on top of me until finally I found myself lying on my bed in tears. I could no longer handle it all on my own. As thoughts ran through my mind. The pain was unbearable. I knew this journey would be long and that I would have to accept some help. That always stresses me out when I have to rely on others.

I've always thought that I can bear it on my own. I thought I could handle it until it all came crashing in on me. So often I try to handle everything in my own strength. I try to build walls to hide and protect me from my own pain and suffering. Also, I suppose I have some insecurity issues. I make things up in my mind on what others think of me and it becomes so real. Satan is the author of lies. In it all, God wants to come into my life and bear it for me. We were not meant to carry it alone. It's just like the Apostle Paul said in his letter to the Corinthian believers, His strength is made perfect in weakness. We think we must be strong to survive, but really we must be weak and allow God to come into our weaknesses. We must invite Him in, because being a God of love He will never force His way into your life.

Knowing all of this, I still find it hard to do.

On a total different note. Please be in prayer for our friends Erin and Justin. Erin is 8 1/2 months pregnant and Justin was just diagnosed with stage 4 Leukemia last week. He will be admitted today to start treatments. They have beautiful picture of faith and know who holds the future.

Confessions

Some of my blogger friends have been blogging about this so I thought I would too.

I hate the dentist but am obsessed with oral hygiene. I still wear my retainers,floss,use mouth wash,a spin brush,and every 6 months or so spend way too much money on teeth whitening from the dentist office.

I have a fear of birds,sometimes I even duck with my hands over my head when birds fly over

I love having flowers, but I hate gardening. Digging in dirt is not fun.It's gross!!!

One of my pet peeves is when people don't push reset on the microwave. I look up to see what time it is and it says "5 seconds"...it drives me CRAZY!!!!!

I never sneez just once.It's usually several at once (like 6)

I love getting to know people and by that I mean actually sitting down with them and seeing their heart.

I love laughing.Despite what it may seem to some I have a very goofy side.



At family gatherings I would rather hang out with kids than talk with adults. Kids are just more fun!

I've never shot a gun.

I'm a girly girl,but I love sports

I love giving presents to people more than receiving them. I am always buying presents or thinking of a reason to purchase gifts for someone, which is why I am constantly broke.I also get upset if at parties or Christmas I don't give the best gift.

I hate bad manners more than anything


I apologize way too much

If I see someone crying I too will cry..same goes for laughing

Jesus saved me October of 1996.Without him I am nothing

I feel I am the most misunderstood person on this earth. 90% of the people in my life may not have the accurate perception of me. I do not blame them. I react and deal with different people differently

When I was little I told my mom I wanted to work at Taco Bell when I grew up!

I am afraid of roasting marshmellows.

I always announce(even at home)that I am going to the bathrom.I don't know why I do this.

I used to go to summer school because I thought it was fun.

I am always early. I can't stand being late.


I can not fold fitted sheets

I've never met my husbands grandparents and they live near Abilene. He hasn't seen them in years.I think its weird.

I hate green beans.I even get a gag reflex when I see them in the store.

I am right brained,James is left brained.Together we make a whole brain. :)

I have way too many purses/bags,shoes,clothes,and jewelry. I never buy them unless they are on sale.

before I die I want to go to Africa and several other places.But,Africa is at the top.

I can not parallel park.


I love old hymns

I can not wait to be a mom


My left foot is a WHOLE shoe size bigger than the right.

I have scoliosis and had to wear a huge back brace to bed every night as a child.

I make lists for everything

I am LOST without my calendar.

I get to be a bridesmaid again....

Miss. Shannon Harris is getting MARRIED!!!

It must be the year for weddings!!!!

I couldn't be happier for all these sweet and precious friends!!

The next best thing to being a bride is being a bridesmaid!!! I love it!!!

Shannon sent me a picture of the bridesmaid dresses she picked out for us. She wanted my opinion (Thanks Shannon for caring enough.) Guess what!!! It was the same exact dress I picked out for my bridesmaids! hehe!! And that is why we are friends!! ;-)

Praying for Haiti

It's been one year since the earthquake shook Haiti.
The country was bad before. Millions lost what little they had.
Still, one year later millions are living in tents.

Haiti has a special place in my heart.
This wasn't my first mission trip, but I think it made the most impact. It was the trip when that little button in my heart was pushed. This trip was nothing like any other. My heart was filled with so many emotions. I developed a true LOVE and passion for the people of Haiti.
I had never seen anything like it. I had never held so many babies who were not wanted.

I want to go back so bad. I want to love on those babies again.